chaka doll

pagsakay sa elevator nakasabay nmen xa. tahimik, walang kausap hbang kme ng kaibigan ko ay nagkkwentuhan. pagdating sa labas ng jg, nsabe ko nlng..

"naawa ako sa kanya"

"kanino?" ang tanong sa akin.

lumingon muna ako sa likod ko bago cnabe.. "si chaka doll"

tahimik kaming naglakad papunta sa underpass. hanggang natigilan ang kasama ko at cnabe.. "ngayon ko lng napagtanto"

ako tahimik lng pero puzzled.

"sabe mo naawa ka sa kanya"

"oo nga"

"pero tinawag mo pa ren xang 'chaka doll'"

waahaha! onga.

"you're so mean"

yah. m baaaad.

feel and think

"learning to let go is fighting the urge of wanting something you are not supposed to have."

.detachment.

"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
"But throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion for a moment.'"

- Morrie, tuesdays with Morrie

perfection does not exist

i miss my old template. i liked it very much =(

"kami nAPO muna"

yey! got myself a copy of the latest collectible. and it's the special limited 2CD edition. =)



decided id get one when a friend of mine made me listen to his pirated copy of this cd. not all songs played well. hahaha!

damn the new sound was really nice. it's a good buy. =)

/zero on patience/

slept well last night. i knew when i woke up that i wouldn't be late for work this time. and so my day started well. i even had time to watch tv in the morning. but it didn't last long. i got so irritated after the lady next to me attempted to fit her elbow in the gap between us. she tried as many times as she can but couldn't coz my arm is blocking hers. and when she fails another attempt, she shifts her foot and steps on mine. maybe she feels uncomfy in her place. and i tried to understand it. but she kept nudging my arm. dammit! i really hated that. then this driver didn't bother to check if anybody else alighting the van before steering the wheel again.

i was so mad when i arrived at my station. i had to put a "DO NOT DISTURB" sign on top of my monitor to avoid people approaching me. i don't want them to be the victim of a sudden outburst that i was trying to control. loud music played in my ears as i began to work. i had the sign on the whole day. but people still tried to contact me through IM. i can't remember how the day went at work.. one friend told me, "be patient". and it only made things worse. i don't have patience today! it just isn't in me. grrr! i was so mad. i didn't appreciate my officemate's effort to make me smile with a silly joke. i should've thanked him for trying.

how bad my day has been. but there's one thing i know will still give me reason for another good night sleep. a happy thought that i've kept to myself all day - seeing him in the morning. waiting. =)

tomorrow will be a new day. i hope to see better days.

cLick again

anong kinalaman ng taong 'to sa "click"?

sorry po. kung sino ka man. this guy just happened to be sleeping outside wendy's g4 when we arrived ni poupe to meet her friend coz they're gonna see the movie click. while waiting, i told her magaling xa f she can take a picture of the guy.

i was invited to join them kaso mejo kahiya nman. so poupe said nah if she gets a picture of that sleeping guy sa corner, ssama nko. it took two shots bago nakuha yang maayos n pose nya. hehe..

good thing i joined them coz ang ganda ng movie. =) and kung d dhil sa person n to d cgro ako mapipilit manood. hehe. salamat. =)