chaka doll

pagsakay sa elevator nakasabay nmen xa. tahimik, walang kausap hbang kme ng kaibigan ko ay nagkkwentuhan. pagdating sa labas ng jg, nsabe ko nlng..

"naawa ako sa kanya"

"kanino?" ang tanong sa akin.

lumingon muna ako sa likod ko bago cnabe.. "si chaka doll"

tahimik kaming naglakad papunta sa underpass. hanggang natigilan ang kasama ko at cnabe.. "ngayon ko lng napagtanto"

ako tahimik lng pero puzzled.

"sabe mo naawa ka sa kanya"

"oo nga"

"pero tinawag mo pa ren xang 'chaka doll'"

waahaha! onga.

"you're so mean"

yah. m baaaad.

feel and think

"learning to let go is fighting the urge of wanting something you are not supposed to have."

.detachment.

"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
"But throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion for a moment.'"

- Morrie, tuesdays with Morrie

perfection does not exist

i miss my old template. i liked it very much =(