the bully wears a mask
projects a being unknown to men
locks the true blush, hindering
radiance. let it not be discovered
let alone surmise what it can see
beyond obscurity
melancholy is enveloped by wrath
**nonsensical. what a pity.
~~~~
you don't know how it feels to be so in love with someone who doesn't even know
Monday, June 20, 2005
back at work
working nga ba?
im late for work and it's the 8th time this month. haha! i don't worry about getting a warning on my SAF. [kc kahit late ako, may mas late pa saken. at walang iba kundi c... *drum rolls* xa nah un.]
pagdating ko wala ng emails sa mailbox. yipee! ndi nga ba eto ung pinagdasal ko kahapon? para makapag blog ako. pero mmaya na un. [pero eto nah un dba?!] im gonna work on my template later. wanna sleep sana kc super sakit ng head ko. think im sick. i dont wanna visit a doctor for check-up, not that im afraid of those needles and other stuff and bloody procedure and what not to help determine what causes this severe headache. i just dont wanna hear that im sick of whatever kind.
sigh.
so un. basta m not really working. i have. but there's nothing else to do.
thank goodness coz il be needing some rest too.
im late for work and it's the 8th time this month. haha! i don't worry about getting a warning on my SAF. [kc kahit late ako, may mas late pa saken. at walang iba kundi c... *drum rolls* xa nah un.]
pagdating ko wala ng emails sa mailbox. yipee! ndi nga ba eto ung pinagdasal ko kahapon? para makapag blog ako. pero mmaya na un. [pero eto nah un dba?!] im gonna work on my template later. wanna sleep sana kc super sakit ng head ko. think im sick. i dont wanna visit a doctor for check-up, not that im afraid of those needles and other stuff and bloody procedure and what not to help determine what causes this severe headache. i just dont wanna hear that im sick of whatever kind.
sigh.
so un. basta m not really working. i have. but there's nothing else to do.
thank goodness coz il be needing some rest too.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
on a sunday afternoon
i got to check my friendster only now. coz it was "under" surf control back in the office. thanks to IT? nweiz, i was surprised to see five messages there. i don't get much messages from friends in friendster nman kc unless it's really important.
one message was quite funny.
a friend replied to a post i placed on bulletin. said his birthday will be in september pa. so why did i greet? hehe. he obviously does not frequent friendster. and pretty much doesn't know how it goes about. my message was posted on bulletin and intended for public reading. i was actually greeting all june celebrants, to save me from missing a birthday which i often do for the past months. coz we are using a different timezone in the office. excuses, excuses.
im looking forward to have more idle time back at work so i can continue working on my blog. nyahaha. m being paid to work on my blog and angel's. doesn't sound so good.
im not gonna check my email today which is probably flooded by messages from that yahoogroup that i joined. such a waste of time to clean my inbox. il read any important message they have maybe tomorrow.
this pc here in netopia nga pala is kinda weird. coz the screen displays japanese characters. buti na lang i know which buttons should be clicked and what everything else means kahit na it's written in japanese.
haven't talked to lui since her visit to PS. her "barkada" was supposed to meet that day for an overnight thing. i was invited but the "gathering" would push through even without me. and it really wouldn't matter if i'll be there or not. might as well not be there. who cares?!
i don't wanna talk to anyone of them for now. or maybe for a couple of weeks or months. anyone but lui. buti nlang she called earlier. got to talk for a few good minutes. and hindi pala cla natuloy. buti nlang tlaga d me ngdecide pumunta. i would be so mad then. lage kc clang palpak sa plano.
one message was quite funny.
a friend replied to a post i placed on bulletin. said his birthday will be in september pa. so why did i greet? hehe. he obviously does not frequent friendster. and pretty much doesn't know how it goes about. my message was posted on bulletin and intended for public reading. i was actually greeting all june celebrants, to save me from missing a birthday which i often do for the past months. coz we are using a different timezone in the office. excuses, excuses.
im looking forward to have more idle time back at work so i can continue working on my blog. nyahaha. m being paid to work on my blog and angel's. doesn't sound so good.
im not gonna check my email today which is probably flooded by messages from that yahoogroup that i joined. such a waste of time to clean my inbox. il read any important message they have maybe tomorrow.
this pc here in netopia nga pala is kinda weird. coz the screen displays japanese characters. buti na lang i know which buttons should be clicked and what everything else means kahit na it's written in japanese.
haven't talked to lui since her visit to PS. her "barkada" was supposed to meet that day for an overnight thing. i was invited but the "gathering" would push through even without me. and it really wouldn't matter if i'll be there or not. might as well not be there. who cares?!
i don't wanna talk to anyone of them for now. or maybe for a couple of weeks or months. anyone but lui. buti nlang she called earlier. got to talk for a few good minutes. and hindi pala cla natuloy. buti nlang tlaga d me ngdecide pumunta. i would be so mad then. lage kc clang palpak sa plano.
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Sonnet 17
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:
where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:
where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
Thursday, June 2, 2005
waxed out
damn good movie. me and some officemates saw house of wax on tuesday night. lucky for mai and anne they were able to release tension by screaming. but not for me. i was cursing but just couldn't scream. i sank in my seat and was still for the longest time i couldn't remember how long it has been. we headed for the terminal right after the movie and went our separate ways.
i wanted so much to take the passenger seat of the shuttle so i can stretch my legs that felt numb and weak [i really wasn't moving a joint back in the movie house], but for some reason there was this annoying old but not aged man who blocked my way. so i left the passenger seat alone coz i thought people waiting after me might get mad already.
i sat on the second of four rows of the shuttle, beside the window. then this "semikal" guy in a smart casual clothing with earphones on sat next to me. [cute.] sigh.
i suddenly thought of my ideal guy that my family should meet. i repeat, SHOULD. i know i would consider my own preferences in choosing the right kind of guy but then it is not the only thing that would matter. there are a lot more things. and you know how Filipino families do get in the way of "love" or what not.. in choosing who "would be" right for any Filipino daughter or son, in some cases.
i understand that family do take this role, especially parents, to protect and in a way try to guide and provide the best for their children. but i hope they would leave to their children the decision of choosing a partner. =)
i wanted so much to take the passenger seat of the shuttle so i can stretch my legs that felt numb and weak [i really wasn't moving a joint back in the movie house], but for some reason there was this annoying old but not aged man who blocked my way. so i left the passenger seat alone coz i thought people waiting after me might get mad already.
i sat on the second of four rows of the shuttle, beside the window. then this "semikal" guy in a smart casual clothing with earphones on sat next to me. [cute.] sigh.
i suddenly thought of my ideal guy that my family should meet. i repeat, SHOULD. i know i would consider my own preferences in choosing the right kind of guy but then it is not the only thing that would matter. there are a lot more things. and you know how Filipino families do get in the way of "love" or what not.. in choosing who "would be" right for any Filipino daughter or son, in some cases.
i understand that family do take this role, especially parents, to protect and in a way try to guide and provide the best for their children. but i hope they would leave to their children the decision of choosing a partner. =)
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