slow pacing

22:11 :)
22:12 Ei! Uv seen d pix n p0?ü
22:14 yup. tnx ha
22:15 ngayon lang ako nagka-pic na kita ako sa boat. hehe
22:16 Yup. Np. Rquest n ----- un e. N0w k lng daw kc sit s fr0nt.ü
22:19 ya. ’99 pa ko nagstart pero ngayon lang ako naging pacer
22:20 may frndstr acct ka?
22:22 Ic. S0 pacer twag dun. Dunno much abt it e. I jz watch.ü I have. U can view it from -----’s page.


Hai.. gone were the days that I think of you. I got rid of everything about u from my fone that occupied a solid 3.5mb space. It was not too much. But it used to be so valuable to me then.

No regrets. I know you are happy. I am happy.

I know I didn’t lose anything I never had in the first place. Makes sense? Who cares?

holloween special

For once, I thought I was doing the right thing.
For once, I thought he was making everything else all good.
It seems to me that life is not like fairy tale all the time.
Coz this time, it's so real.
And it feels good.

Then he blew it.
Or did I?
Oh, where has all the magic gone?

I'd love for us to stay that way forever.
Too bad it can't possibly be.
Until I find no more reason to believe, I still feel for you.

chaka doll

pagsakay sa elevator nakasabay nmen xa. tahimik, walang kausap hbang kme ng kaibigan ko ay nagkkwentuhan. pagdating sa labas ng jg, nsabe ko nlng..

"naawa ako sa kanya"

"kanino?" ang tanong sa akin.

lumingon muna ako sa likod ko bago cnabe.. "si chaka doll"

tahimik kaming naglakad papunta sa underpass. hanggang natigilan ang kasama ko at cnabe.. "ngayon ko lng napagtanto"

ako tahimik lng pero puzzled.

"sabe mo naawa ka sa kanya"

"oo nga"

"pero tinawag mo pa ren xang 'chaka doll'"

waahaha! onga.

"you're so mean"

yah. m baaaad.

feel and think

"learning to let go is fighting the urge of wanting something you are not supposed to have."

.detachment.

"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
"But throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion for a moment.'"

- Morrie, tuesdays with Morrie

perfection does not exist

i miss my old template. i liked it very much =(

"kami nAPO muna"

yey! got myself a copy of the latest collectible. and it's the special limited 2CD edition. =)



decided id get one when a friend of mine made me listen to his pirated copy of this cd. not all songs played well. hahaha!

damn the new sound was really nice. it's a good buy. =)

/zero on patience/

slept well last night. i knew when i woke up that i wouldn't be late for work this time. and so my day started well. i even had time to watch tv in the morning. but it didn't last long. i got so irritated after the lady next to me attempted to fit her elbow in the gap between us. she tried as many times as she can but couldn't coz my arm is blocking hers. and when she fails another attempt, she shifts her foot and steps on mine. maybe she feels uncomfy in her place. and i tried to understand it. but she kept nudging my arm. dammit! i really hated that. then this driver didn't bother to check if anybody else alighting the van before steering the wheel again.

i was so mad when i arrived at my station. i had to put a "DO NOT DISTURB" sign on top of my monitor to avoid people approaching me. i don't want them to be the victim of a sudden outburst that i was trying to control. loud music played in my ears as i began to work. i had the sign on the whole day. but people still tried to contact me through IM. i can't remember how the day went at work.. one friend told me, "be patient". and it only made things worse. i don't have patience today! it just isn't in me. grrr! i was so mad. i didn't appreciate my officemate's effort to make me smile with a silly joke. i should've thanked him for trying.

how bad my day has been. but there's one thing i know will still give me reason for another good night sleep. a happy thought that i've kept to myself all day - seeing him in the morning. waiting. =)

tomorrow will be a new day. i hope to see better days.

cLick again

anong kinalaman ng taong 'to sa "click"?

sorry po. kung sino ka man. this guy just happened to be sleeping outside wendy's g4 when we arrived ni poupe to meet her friend coz they're gonna see the movie click. while waiting, i told her magaling xa f she can take a picture of the guy.

i was invited to join them kaso mejo kahiya nman. so poupe said nah if she gets a picture of that sleeping guy sa corner, ssama nko. it took two shots bago nakuha yang maayos n pose nya. hehe..

good thing i joined them coz ang ganda ng movie. =) and kung d dhil sa person n to d cgro ako mapipilit manood. hehe. salamat. =)

* friendster updates *

i dunno why pero waLa n xa sa friends ko. m sad. =(
miss ko n xa. d xa nagrereply sa txt ko. tagal nren last login nya sa friendster. busy cgro sa career at gf. =(
i like margaux's new hair do.
he likes me daw. i like him too. pero d nya alam. hanggang ngyon p ren kaya?
suplado nman nun. nag login n xa sa 3 days ago pero d pa inaccept ung invite ko. sayang idol ko p nman xa. pero that won't stop me from watching his games.
mejo andami ko nang ngawan ng testimonials huh. d p ren nppost. nkkawalang gana.
sana tama ung person nah kausap ko sa friendster. sana xa nga ung dati kong kilala. kc kun nde.. tsk tsk.

< tama >

i was "cleaning" my friendster and finally decided to delete those testimonials that were neither approved nor deleted. testimonials from ex-friends. hmm.. but before i did, i read through it.

and guess what.. npaka nonsense nung mga cnabe ni ****. as in. hehe. no wonder d ko un inapprove dati. that was way back in 2004 pa. pero sumthing struck at the end of the message.

"sinungaling ang di umamin."

buti nman aminado xa. i like that.

definitely not

this is not a very good day for me. =(

i thought that plenty of sleep during the night would give me a fresh new start in the morning. i was wrong.

too bad.

better luck tomorrow.

cLick

+ cLick +

you should watch it. it's nice. =)

friends again?

we're finally ok nah ni pau.. i think. hehe.. coz she sent an invite sa friendster. and i acceptd it nah. even made a testimonial for her. hope she approves it. hmm.. today wasn't so good for me. dami nang d maganda nangyayari for the past few days. lunch was not so good knina pa. didn't have ketchup. food was so dry. it was kinda rainy pa outside. m hungry nnman tuloy. redo of shift bid and i was left with fri-sat off, the next best thing after all weekend offs were taken. sigh. hope i could have more time soon to update my blog and change my url. and fix all things that needs to be done.

something stupid

like the song that plays... "i feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes"

i am so stupid. i feel like i do all stupid things more than anybody can do. pwde bang madapa na lang? so i can actually feel it? argggh!

i wanna go home. =(

~ugLy~

"People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

Personality reflects name

And if I'm ugly then so are you"

The Da Vinci Code

The Da Vinci Code...

is finally here! isang taon den namen hinintay ng mga friends ko ang film n to. so happy it will open tomorrow. pero sa friday p kme watch. i hope that will be one happy day i would never forget. kc magkikita nren kme sa wakas ng mga old officemates. sobrang namiss ko nren cla and excited nko mkita cla and excited xmpre to watch the movie.

m still waiting for this super slow n sureseats
nah to. ang bagal mag load. mauubos oras ko kkhintay. =(

m sleepy nah.

one day, sa ym...

she noticed a friend's status briefly describing her (the friend) current mood. so she sent a message and they talked for a while. "if things are not swaying with you, i hope in time it will be alright," she told her friend. and the friend replied, "sana." and continued, "sad lng me kase broken heart hehehe."

she tried to comfort her friend and said that everyone goes through that heartbreak part, and that it's better than to never being able to love and share it with another, and to cherish the good moments.

sigh. why is it so hard kc for girls to get over with it? sometimes we still wanna be assured that things would get better even if we have this feeling that there's nothing we can do about it anymore.

normally, girls would see a relationship as a long term commitment. but the thing is, guys don't see it the way girls do. =(

happy new year

how happy can you be on new year's eve?

ako, happy? hmm, i missed the year-end countdown. so ndi ko p ren alam at this moment kung ano ang song of the year. but yes, i am happy. we spent new year's eve at my tita's place sa laguna. masaya kc bonding nnman with cuzins. and i have enough load on my fone to greet everyone i know. everyone i wanted to greet. hehe. daming food and we have dvds we can watch and games to play and lots of other things to do. masaya kht malayo ung place and mejo secluded. at ndi mxado polluted un air.

i was especially happy nga pla when i texted my college law prof and he replied. hehe.

i bought my last drink sa starbucks nung 30th so i can claim my 2006 planner. unfortunately, they don't have it then so he told me i can claim it elsewhere or wait for a day or two pag nagkaron na cla ng planner. it was my target to complete the stickers before the year ends pra nga i have something to write on agad pagdating ng january 1. kaso since wala nga, have to wait nlng. ok lng den. coz he gave me another chance to see him again. hehe.

i hope na maging masaya nko this year. ayoko nang umiyak. or kung ndi maiiwasan, atleast sana mabawasan. i don't think im ready yet to face this new year that has began. pero life must go on. so il juz have to live each day and try to make the best out of it.

il make some concrete plans for myself this year. il put it in writing pra matupad lahat. gudluck saken.