*maldita*

pau: may barkada pala xa.
me: cno?
pau: c chito.
me: bkit?
pau: kase tinanong ko bakit cla nakatayo. sagot ni chito, "barkada break"
lolz!

carla's 23rd birthday

went to carla's birthday last night.
and it was also to celebrate the best thing, i guess, that happened to her so far.
she passed CPA board exams.
was happy she still remembers me.
had no intention of going there because i don't know how to get to the place.
but i found out jill is going there too after her work.
and i have to wait for her.
and so i waited.
and we took the bus as advised by a friend.
and not the mrt coz we'll have to walk if we do.
and then hailed a cab.
and reached the destination.
and saw some old friends from accounting block.
and we shared stories of some things passed.
and heard lots of stories on their hardships and what not during CPA reviews,
and that their block was bound by a curse that only two may pass in every CPA exam held.
had a pretty good time with them. :p
had to leave early coz work is waiting the following day.
enjoyed the ride home.
hope to see them again.

isusumbong kita kay jodie, cge

wala lang magawa...

me: tigers ba ung ust?
pau: yep
me: a ok. tnx
pau: cno to
me: duh!
me: ako
pau: duh ur face
me: duh ka ren!
me: sumbong kita kay jodie!
me: kc bad ka
pau: erika
pau: lang ya
me: cno kala mo? haha
pau: c angel

affected

nabasa ko 'to sa blog ni rj.
pwede namang sabihinig galit, bakit kailngan pang magsinungaling?
pwede namang sagutin ako ng "oo! fuck off will you?" bakit kailangan pang manahimik pag tinatanong?
pwede namang sabihing wag na akong magparamdam, bakit kailangang sabihing ayos lang pero cold naman?
pwede namang ako kausapin at komprontahin, bakit kailangan pang ganito?
hindi naman ako tanga para hindi maramdaman to ah.
bakit kailangang bale walain?
nakakainggit
pero sana kinakausap mo ako
kahit panay mura lang ang sinasabi mo
basta sigurado ako sa nararamdaman mo
halata naman eh
wag mo itago
hindi ako tanga
nakakainggit
sana kinakausap mo pa rin ako
sana sinasabi mo ang nasa loob mo
sawa na ako sa ganitong sitwasyon
akala mo ba lagi nalang ako ang mali
hindi sa lahat na oras kailangang tanggapin ko iyon
nakakairita kasi hindi mo naman na-apprecite lahat eh
ngayon alam ko na
masyado lahat mataas ang expectation mo
at hindi mo nagustuhan ang binigay ko
non-sense nanaman ako
leche

posted by ray john @ 11:56 AM


ano naman ngayon? affected ba ako?

oo, affected ako. assuming siguro ako, pero affected ako. kahit alam ko hindi ako sigurado kung kanino patungkol ang mga sinulat mo. ang mga bagay na ito ay madalas ko naririnig sa iyo. noon pa un, matagal na. marahil limot na. pero ako, naaalala ko pa ren.

oo, guilty ako. kaya ako nag rreact. at tulad mo, ito lang ang paraan ko para ilabas ang nararamdaman ko. alam ko maraming hindi makakaintindi kung bakit ko pa kailangan gawin ang bagay na ito. pabayaan niyo na lang ako. isipin niyo na lang na makakagaan sa loob ko itong ginagawa ko.

hangover

we were at the dining table. food is served but not for me. ang sarap p nman ng fud! pritong talong. and tilapia. sobrang takam na takam ako. since i don't have all the chance to eat those kind of food. i knew mum won't let me eat but i still asked for permission.

"hindi pwede. lugaw lang sa yo" sabe ng mum ko.

"baka nman hangover yan?" tanong ni kuya.

sun was setting already and im still not feeling well. i puked out all i ate since breakfast. and was looking really pale.

"baka nman may ininom ka. uminom ka ba dun?" he asks again.

yes. but im not telling. not in front of my mum. i took the last half glass of chito's illegally possesed emperador. and just two cans of san mig light. [1 can is worth 65.00php]

"uminom kba ng wine or ladies' drink?" asked my mum.

"punch" dagdag ni kuya.

i lied, "iced tea lng."

a few moments of silence.

"mag cupcake ka na lang." sabe ni kuya. pero sabe nnaman ng mum ko hindi nga pwede.

maya-maya.. nagligpit ng gamit c kuya at nilabas lahat ng laman ng bag niya. sabay tapon ng 2 cupcake sa table dun mismo sa harap ko.

sumigaw ako, "hindi nga pwede."

"e hindi naman sa yo yan" sagot niya.

and then tells me, "erika, ang sungit sungit mo ha!"

more silence. then i asked mum, "e fish, pwede?"

makulit talaga ako. pero anong gagawen ko sa lugaw. wala nmang lasa un!

sumagot ang nanay ko, "you make my day.. mother's day"

onga. tangna. not often do i feel my mum care about me tas ako pa makulit at nagagalit. tears fell down my cheeks as i sat silently there.

a lot more silence. then mum said, "baka naman sa punch yan na ininom mo?"

"may cnabe ba akong uminom ako ng punch!"

natawa na lang kme ni kuya before i finally stood up and left the table.

and now kuya [knows my blog address] probably knows what really happened.

hindi ako na food poison or nkainom ng contaminated water. i was thinking maybe because i took a med to stop the itching on my back caused by alcohol kaya prang nagbounce and instead na itchy e nilabas ko na lang.

bawal mag-internet

my lunch break was almost over when i opened my email to check for new messages. then i noticed bon has sent a message to our group on yahoo. so i told him, "ikaw lang ang masipag mgsend sa yahoogroups naten." he went over to my station and instructed me to open one of the emails that i got, click on the link and to play the game.

i thought that it would be just another trick where, when opened, a bloody-faced girl would scream at your face. hell, i was never wrong. i "played" the spot-the-difference game. [with sounds] good thing i didn't put my headset exactly where it should be. and then i saw her.

they didn't hear her scream, only mine. nakakahiya. andami ytang nkarinig na ksama ko sa work.

cnabe n kc... bawal mag internet!