Y O U..

.. piss me off. need i say more?

.h.

nsad ako. kc may bago n xa. pero ok lng. wala nman akong dapat panghinayangan. dba? lam nman ng halos lhat ng close saken ano ngyari.. ndi ko n ieelaborate kung gano ka immature c ------. sana lng ngbago n xa. kwawa nman un girl kung gnun p ren xa gaya ng kung ano xa dati. they seem happy. ganun nman lahat pag bago e. hmm.. i hope mging msaya tlga cla. i mean it.

friends nman kme e. sana totoo un. dpa nman kme ng uusap ulit. and dpa ren nman kme ngkakasalubong sa daan. thank god.

so un.. nsabe ko lng n nsad ako. but m ok. mas mdami pang dapat intindhin kesa dun sa nlman ko.

i wont ruin the rest of my day for this. =)

feeling feelingan

ikaw: musta?

ngtxt nnman xa.. sa pagkakaalam ko malinaw nman ung mga cnabe ko dati. ewan ko b bkt ayaw p nya tumigil. nweiz,, il try to be nice and sana wala xang sabihen n dko magugustuhan.. so cnagot ko..

ako: k lng. kw?

ikaw: ok lng pu. punta kb ke papa?

huh? ayus to ah..

ako: kninong papa?

ikaw: papa mu..

gago.. nakikitwag ng papa sa papa ko. kapal..

ako: yup

ikaw: kailan? cnu ksama mu?

ako: dko p alm. wd fmily.

ikaw: ok. sama sna aq e.

kala mo invite kita sumama huh. kung gusto mo tlga magmaganda, edi dalawin mo puntod ng tatay ko. pero wag ka makasama2 saken kung kelan ako punta dun noh. feeling nman..

i dont want to sound mean or whatever.. pero lamo nman ayoko xo ipipilit mo p tlga srile mo. kulit mo e. ano pb gusto mo sabhen ko? ung maiintndhan mo? hai naku!

hello, anybody?

can't think of a good title for this.. nweiz,,

everyone has practically moved on with their lives.
promotions for my friends.
my best friend got married and is pregnant.
my old hs friend who came home from the states and could not speak much tagalog and american accent is running through her veins.
d closest friends i used to have do not reply to my txts anymore.
college friends are so busy with their own careers and making big money.
were have they gone?

me? im still here.
im stuck here.
in my past.
in solitude.

i should move on.
on my own.

btw, im so relieved he finally answered. i really just wanna say im sorry for all the shitty things ive said and done. he may have hurt me in the past but i have no right to hurt him in any way.

im really sorry. and thank you.

now, im moving on. i choose to be happy.

wish me luck.

prayer

cmula nung nagwork ako sa col center, andami ko nang nalipatan n station. wala nman kcng permanent stations dun. dpende kc un kung san k nila gusto ilagay. or kung gagana ung tools mo nah mkkpagtrabaho k ng maayos.

halos lhat ng sides ng floor e naikot ko nah. namen. hindi ko nga lng nagamit lhat ng pc. kc pag nhanap ko nah un pwesto ko, dun nko umuupo lage.

ung isang pc sa dulo, ung may mgandang monitor, ndi mxado malamig at tama ung lighting.. dati ung sup station, nging agent station, nging sup station ulit at ngyon gngamit n ulit ng agent. minsan nging station ko un. morning shift pko. un den ung station nah nkaaway ko ung ka share ko nah tga gy nun. madumi kc gumamit. nag iiwan ng stirrer at may cofee spills ung keyboard at table.

nweiz, nkita ko ung station, maalikabok xa.. pero natuwa ako n andun p ren ung nka scotch tape nah portion ng jaryo. brown n un paper. mejo nalukot nah. pero buo p ren. ung prayer nah nakuha ko s inquirer libre.

vol. 5 no. 57 | friday, february 10, 2006

"Lord, i pray for people who are unhappy at work... for those who must work with a bitter, negative associate... for those whose accomplishments are ignored and unappreciated... for those who have unscrupulous competitors... for those who get too many demands, and too few thanks... for those whose quotas are too high, and whose budgets are too low. Lord, comfort them, and give them courage to make wise changes. (PAW)"

sobrang tama un pra pra sa environment nah kinalalagyan ko. ang galing nman, andun pa ren un.

go banal!

nanalo daw ung mapua knina sa letran. yey! sayang d ko npanood. sarap kc matulog may bagyo. at pg gcng ko klangan n magmdaling mag ayos kc may work pa and mbagal tlga ako kumilos. super. nweiz, sayang d nkapasok c chito (binaha n yta sa valenzuela) wala tuloy akong aasarin kc talo un letran. haha!

m a red lions fan since last year lng. impluwensiya ng frends. pag nanonood ako, ndi ung game ang pinapanood ko. ung players. hehe. ngyon nlng ako mejo nkkaintindi nung mechanics ng game at ung mga terms nila mejo nggets ko nah. tho ndi p lahat. d nman kc ako fan tlga ng kht anong basketball games. dati gusto ko c jamal. magaling xa, sa aking opinion. pero ngyon ayoko n sknya. kc mukang suplado. saka nag iba yta ichura nya kumpara sa last season. hmm.. ngyon, c banal ng mapua nah ang gusto ko. =) bkt? wala lng. hehe. mlamang mlaking contribution nya sa pagkapanalo nila sa letran dun sa game knina.

pero sabe ko nga fan ako ng red lions. kya it breaks my heart pag ung 2 teams nah un ang magkalaban. haha!

hmm, basta kitakits nlng sa finals. =)

WANT vs. WANTS

umm. so ayun.. dko pa alam kung mkakanood nga ako ng fall out boy. wala p kcng concrete plans watsoever. and bka late nah for instant plans.

hbang hinihintay ko magreply ung isang frend ko n nk2log nah.. cnabihan ako ni poupe nah..

d nko pwde bumile ng havaianas. kung gagastos ako para sa concert.

"huh? e sa september p nman un." dahilan ko.

kht nah. pati daw ung jacket n gusto ko d nko dpat bumile. or kht ano sa mga items n cnulat ko sa wishlist ko khpon.

pano nah? lahat un gusto ko. and ung wishlist ko. short lng un. pero mejo expensive ung mga gusto ko n nkasulat dun.

ang lunkot =(

well, sobra n nga nman un. hmp! dpat kc bumile nko ng slippers last time ng sale cla. para ndi mukhang mgastos. hehe.. ng oversleep kc ako nung huling weekend sale. =(

ang dami kong gusto. kainis.

ano nga b tlga ung kelangan ko?

you and me

what is maturity?

. it's the ability to control anger and settle differences
. the willingness to pass up immediate pleasure for long term gain
. the ability to sweat out a project or situation in spite of setbacks
. the capacity to face frustration, discomfort, and defeat without complaint
. being big enough to say "i was wrong"

what is immaturity?

. joshua dave + me

whammos!

namigay c gelo ng twiggies knina. ung prang pang snack ng mga kids. chocolate cake n may filling ng chocolate sa loob. gawa ng gardenia. masarap nman.

ung pagkain ng twiggies ang nagpaalala sa mga snacks at chocolates nah knakain nmen nuon.

tanong nya saken kung naalala ko p daw ung "wamoos" (ganun nya bnigkas). and kung pano ung spelling. d kc mahanap sa net. onga. kumakain den ako nun.. college days n yta. pero dko maalala anong spelling nun. basta alam ko lng msarap un.. inattempt ko isearch sa net. pero cns dko ren mkuha ng tama ung spelling, ndi ko ren mahanap. shocks. hmm...

buti nlng nag online c cuz ady..

me: ei! ano nga ung chocolate cake n snack na wamoos b un? pano spelling nun?
cuz_ady: whammos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me: haha! tnx!
me: ano2 mga flavors nun?
me: dba may filling un sa loob?
cuz_ady: vanilla nung una
cuz_ady: tapos nagkaroon ng chocolate
me: color blue b un wrapper?
cuz_ady: oo!!!!!!!!!!
cuz_ady: MISS KO NA YUN!
me: hehe.. knina p nmen iniicp d2 ung spelling nun.
me: tnx. hehe
cuz_ady: wehehehe

ayun.. whammos pala. hehe.

tanong ko nman dun sa mga familiar sa chocolates galing saudi.. kung alam nila un lion's bar. hmm. sarap. fave ko un nung bata pko. lage kme may padala ng kuya ko galing sa parents nmen nun nung nagwork p cla sa dun. aon kay chito, un daw ang best chocolate pra sa knya. hai.. nakakamis ung chocolate n un.

eto nman c moe.. pilit pinapalala ung kinder nah chocolate. masarp daw un. dko alam un huh. and wala ren yta kht cno samen n nkkalam kung ano un. ??

at ung cereals n may tiger? kellogg's frosted flakes.. yummy.

dami pa kmeng nirecall n mga pagkain at chocolates n  nging bhagi ng "kbataan" days. nkkatuwa nman.

inconceivable

today, i realized that i am not a 'people person' and it sucks. there is no way around without getting in contact with another human being.

this is so...

the less0n i learned today

Kelan b d dpat mgtrust s isang frend?
Hnram nya un f0n ko, askng f i stl hav d pix taken arnd 2wks ago nung ngpunta kme s klowns at tgaytay. Havng sed n gs2 dw nya mkta un pix, inunlock ko un f0n ko and bnigay sknya. I had n0 idea n bburahin pla nya mga pix n knuha ko wyl she ws slpng (and drunk) s backseat. Haha! So ako ung bad. Kc ako ngtake ng mraming pix hbang wla xang malay. And ngy0n k lng nlaman nung inaayos ko n un mga pix s f0n ko. Hmm, dko nmn naicp n ggwn nya un and nkalimutan k nren un abt s mga pix. Wla nren ako mggwa kc dko p naupload agad. Sayang. bbawi nlang ako nxtym n mlasing xa. Hehe.
So ang less0n 4 me ngy0n s wag mxado mgtrust s mga frends. Coz dy d0nt always tell u d truth. Dey wud say anytng 2 get wat dey want.
And para senyo, drink m0derately. Para d wasted at d npagttripan ng mga ksama.

it sucks...

why does it always leave me miserable whenever i try to be happy? there has to be sum1 or sumthing that takes away the reason for being happy. it sucks. i hate it.

i know i have to be in control and could not let people or things or any event make me sad if i really want to.

but sumtimes it just happens. misery sinks in to the bone. i endure all pain and cry my heart out.

then i learn to be thankful for ehat i have, people i have in my life and those who have me in theirs. id feel better then.

shongerks

it's a term i learned from my cousin. i think its sum sort of gay lingo. whatever. i dunno. could be used to describe a person who did sumthing stupid. since ive learned about the word, i carelessly use it just about anytime i think anyone is being "stupid".

while trying to get some sleep.. i thought of a few things. then it hit me. shongerks--that was me. after everything that happened between us, what i went through to him, going over the edge and beyond reason, believing what was there and was not.

how stupid can i get? *shongerks*

BOBOng Pinoy, bumoto ka ba?

kht gano p kabulok ang sistema ng bansang ito, kht sobrang naghihirap na ang buhay at prang ndi nah uunlad.. mahal ko pa ren ang Pilipinas. dito ko p ren gusto tumira.

at khit malabo, naniniwala p ren ako n kung ttulong ako, magkkaron p ren ng pagbabago. gaya ng pagboto..

lahat tau may karapatan. pero ndi lahat sa atin may chance na magawa ito.

kaya ako, habang kaya ko pa, at may pagkakataon, bumoto ako.



sana lahat nkaboto. minsan lng nten gawin un. pero sadly, ndi nangyari un. ung iba, d pwde iwan ang trabaho. or may ibang mas importanteng ggawen. ano nman excuse ng ibang tao? mas may sense nga ba ang matulog nlng kesa bumoto?

tas pag nagkkaproblema, sinisisi natin ung mga taong naluklok sa gobyerno. nagrereklamo tau kc lage nlng ganito nangyayari. kmusta nman un? e cno ba bumoto dun sa mga un? kung sana pinili natin ng wasto kung cno ung nrarapat para sa posisyon, edi nbbawasan un hirap at gulo dito. sana lahat masaya dba?

hmm.. sana sa susunod mag isep ng mabuti.