like the song that plays... "i feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes"
i am so stupid. i feel like i do all stupid things more than anybody can do. pwde bang madapa na lang? so i can actually feel it? argggh!
i wanna go home. =(
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
~ugLy~
"People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then so are you"
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
The Da Vinci Code
The Da Vinci Code...
is finally here! isang taon den namen hinintay ng mga friends ko ang film n to. so happy it will open tomorrow. pero sa friday p kme watch. i hope that will be one happy day i would never forget. kc magkikita nren kme sa wakas ng mga old officemates. sobrang namiss ko nren cla and excited nko mkita cla and excited xmpre to watch the movie.
m still waiting for this super slow n sureseats
nah to. ang bagal mag load. mauubos oras ko kkhintay. =(
m sleepy nah.
Sunday, January 1, 2006
one day, sa ym...
she noticed a friend's status briefly describing her (the friend) current mood. so she sent a message and they talked for a while. "if things are not swaying with you, i hope in time it will be alright," she told her friend. and the friend replied, "sana." and continued, "sad lng me kase broken heart hehehe."
she tried to comfort her friend and said that everyone goes through that heartbreak part, and that it's better than to never being able to love and share it with another, and to cherish the good moments.
sigh. why is it so hard kc for girls to get over with it? sometimes we still wanna be assured that things would get better even if we have this feeling that there's nothing we can do about it anymore.
normally, girls would see a relationship as a long term commitment. but the thing is, guys don't see it the way girls do. =(
she tried to comfort her friend and said that everyone goes through that heartbreak part, and that it's better than to never being able to love and share it with another, and to cherish the good moments.
sigh. why is it so hard kc for girls to get over with it? sometimes we still wanna be assured that things would get better even if we have this feeling that there's nothing we can do about it anymore.
normally, girls would see a relationship as a long term commitment. but the thing is, guys don't see it the way girls do. =(
happy new year
how happy can you be on new year's eve?
ako, happy? hmm, i missed the year-end countdown. so ndi ko p ren alam at this moment kung ano ang song of the year. but yes, i am happy. we spent new year's eve at my tita's place sa laguna. masaya kc bonding nnman with cuzins. and i have enough load on my fone to greet everyone i know. everyone i wanted to greet. hehe. daming food and we have dvds we can watch and games to play and lots of other things to do. masaya kht malayo ung place and mejo secluded. at ndi mxado polluted un air.
i was especially happy nga pla when i texted my college law prof and he replied. hehe.
i bought my last drink sa starbucks nung 30th so i can claim my 2006 planner. unfortunately, they don't have it then so he told me i can claim it elsewhere or wait for a day or two pag nagkaron na cla ng planner. it was my target to complete the stickers before the year ends pra nga i have something to write on agad pagdating ng january 1. kaso since wala nga, have to wait nlng. ok lng den. coz he gave me another chance to see him again. hehe.
i hope na maging masaya nko this year. ayoko nang umiyak. or kung ndi maiiwasan, atleast sana mabawasan. i don't think im ready yet to face this new year that has began. pero life must go on. so il juz have to live each day and try to make the best out of it.
il make some concrete plans for myself this year. il put it in writing pra matupad lahat. gudluck saken.
ako, happy? hmm, i missed the year-end countdown. so ndi ko p ren alam at this moment kung ano ang song of the year. but yes, i am happy. we spent new year's eve at my tita's place sa laguna. masaya kc bonding nnman with cuzins. and i have enough load on my fone to greet everyone i know. everyone i wanted to greet. hehe. daming food and we have dvds we can watch and games to play and lots of other things to do. masaya kht malayo ung place and mejo secluded. at ndi mxado polluted un air.
i was especially happy nga pla when i texted my college law prof and he replied. hehe.
i bought my last drink sa starbucks nung 30th so i can claim my 2006 planner. unfortunately, they don't have it then so he told me i can claim it elsewhere or wait for a day or two pag nagkaron na cla ng planner. it was my target to complete the stickers before the year ends pra nga i have something to write on agad pagdating ng january 1. kaso since wala nga, have to wait nlng. ok lng den. coz he gave me another chance to see him again. hehe.
i hope na maging masaya nko this year. ayoko nang umiyak. or kung ndi maiiwasan, atleast sana mabawasan. i don't think im ready yet to face this new year that has began. pero life must go on. so il juz have to live each day and try to make the best out of it.
il make some concrete plans for myself this year. il put it in writing pra matupad lahat. gudluck saken.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
november pest
this month has not done me any good. lahat na yta ng panahon na nbadtrip ako, nalungkot, naiyak, nagalit andito nah. there were times na masaya ako. pero i couln't help but think na may kapalit ung pagiging msaya ko. a few more days to go and i'll be glad this will be over.
birthday blues
over nga ba? im looking forward to my 22nd birthday and i don't think it will be that much fun. not everyone remembers my birthday. coz if it doesn't fall on a weekend, it surely will be a no-class, no-work day. and people tend to forget to greet you coz they don't see you. (some people do.) well, it's on a holiday kc. buti na lng i have work, it might cheer me up. i was invited to watch a movie with some friends. i hope to have a good time.
btw, c allan lng and lui among my "friends" ang nkakaalala. and allan was the only one who has been constantly greeting me whenever possible. ok lang sana kaso.. one time, he told me something like friends nga kme ni lui coz we have these "birthday blues" nga. coz i was telling him na im upset that the other guys don't remember. hai.. wag sana maghanap ng treat ung iba jan na ndi nman alam kung kelan ang bday ko. =(
m really sad.
i'm planning to buy that red jacket from adidas or that red bag na mukhang ubos na. gift ko sa sarile ko pra happy me. but it depends if i have money pa. =( got to pay for gadget pa.
undas
i was asked to stay in pasig for two nights. coz walang ksamang "grown-up" ung 2 cuzins ko and the helper. i agreed to go since i've got work during the holidays. and i anticipated heavy traffic here along sucat hi-way on those days. while i was there, i found out kuya went to the cemetery already. he could go alone and he does it sometimes nman tlaga. so i texted my mum and coco when will we go to visit my dad's grave. and nobody replied. when i came home, i learned they have already gone there and did not wait for me. i was really sad and kind of mad coz it was the first time they went without me. how could they do that? we have always planned the date and time when everyone is good to go. and now they just didn't wait for me.
graveyard
i thought there's nothing scary sa mga graveyard. well, i don't go there alone nga kc dba. whether it was day or night. but when i went earlier to visit my dad's grave, i got really scared dhil ako lng mag-isa. alam mo ba ung huling poste na may ilaw sa gitna ng kalsada? ndi pa un dun. malayo pa. ndi nman ako dpat matakot kc marami pang tao. pero lahat cla palabas na. i didn't see anyone na papunta plang sa loob. and it was getting dark. and these people, ndi ko cla kilala. wat if they come near me and snatch my fone? =( or take me somewhere else that nobody can hear me? and kht na sumigaw ako, wala p ren mkakarinig saken. wat if they simply hurt me? ndi p nman alam sa bahay kung san ako nagpunta. i decided id call someone and tell him/her where i was. pra in case i don't return, malalaman nyo wer i was the last time. i was thinking of calling lui pero mlamang tulog un. paul didn't answer his fone. cno nlang? allan? asar ako sknya e. pero cge. he answered and told him wer i was. he instructed me to get out immediately. what the hell?! i just arrived. i promised to text him when im ok na.
i felt the need to go there before i have my birthday. i feel obliged to visit. i feel bad when each day passes and i couldn't at least drop by. i thought that maybe he would visit me instead if i won't make it to his grave.
i wished i brought scissors and cleaning stuff to fix the place. but even if i have it with me, i won't be able to do it. i lit a candle and talked to him. i miss him so much. i promised to go back some other time.
commencement exercises
nag leave ako for 2 days. first is to attend my mum's grad for her master's degree. the second day was supposed to be to attend a wedding.
sa PICC ung grad. it was the most disorganized event i've ever been to. sabe 2pm ung start, then it became 1pm. and when we got there, we thought we were already late. but no. it did not start until past 3pm. we have witnessed them do their rehearsals right there when they were supposed to have started already. the school president did not bother to practice his speech. he was a complete mess. and it was really funny. and those students kept standing and moving around while the president was making his terrible speech and the guest speaker who was good but has a weird accent. i recalled the grad practice we had back in college. we were strictly not allowed to stand and go anywhere else unless we finish. i wonder how we looked from behind. it must have been beautiful.
back to this grad. i hope next time they would work hard to improve it. they don't look like they could produce well-mannered students who can pass board exams. btw, the school.. it's PCHS.
that day i got mad kay kuya. it has something to do with money. i always pay for our transpo. he's always libre. wtf. on our way to PICC, i paid for the taxi. then pauwi mum borrowed some money from me and i gave her my last money assured that we could still go home ni kuya with what money he has. he's got lakad that night so i guessed that was the reason he wants to hurry. e kaso traffic. tas gusto pa nya mag taxi. i've got 20php left and he took it to add to his money. i don't have any money n tlga. we could've taken fx kaso galit n xa kuno. watever! he does not know how to make tipid. he'll spend everything khit ndi na kanya. BS tlga.
i left home the following day coz i don't want to go to the wedding anymore. and besides, i don't have money for another taxi ride. and xa nnman ang ksma ko. so i went with my cuzin nlng kc mag-eenrol xa nung araw na un. kuya txted and was looking for me. i didn't reply. and after 2 hours, his gf called and asked wer i was and how we wud mit to go to church. after nun, ndi pa kuntento ang kuya ko. he texted me pa. letting me know galit xa and telling me things i should've done. i nver tell him wer i go so why wud i bother tell him wer i was dat day. tas he blamed me pa coz f he knew sana daw maaga xa nkaalis ng house. ndi ko na problema un. asar tlga ako.
my sassy girl
i've seen that small billboard of the movie somewhere. and when basti invited me to watch, i refused. i don't like too much of those korean or chinese soaps and stuff anymore. and i definitely would not watch it in theaters. pero sabe nila maganda and it's really funny. so one time when my brother borrowed a vcd from his friend, we watched it at home. and sobrang funny nya. i told everyone i know na panoorin ung movie. so far all responded positively. except for karen. sabe nya it was the movie she was criticizing. pero it seemed to me na ako ung pinupuntirya nya and that jologs ang dating mo if u were caught watching korean flicks. so i told her i didn't like those stuff nga and wud never see it in big screens. pero prang ndi nya nagets. and thought na i watched it sa cine pa. ano buzz! ndi nga e. tas un, nag argue nkme. it was thru txt lang. oo napikon ako. e ndi ko nagustuhan ung mga cnabe nya. ndi lng kme nagkaintindihan. bhala nah. we haven't talked since it happened. that was nov. 12.
gudluck sa mga susunod na araw.
birthday blues
over nga ba? im looking forward to my 22nd birthday and i don't think it will be that much fun. not everyone remembers my birthday. coz if it doesn't fall on a weekend, it surely will be a no-class, no-work day. and people tend to forget to greet you coz they don't see you. (some people do.) well, it's on a holiday kc. buti na lng i have work, it might cheer me up. i was invited to watch a movie with some friends. i hope to have a good time.
btw, c allan lng and lui among my "friends" ang nkakaalala. and allan was the only one who has been constantly greeting me whenever possible. ok lang sana kaso.. one time, he told me something like friends nga kme ni lui coz we have these "birthday blues" nga. coz i was telling him na im upset that the other guys don't remember. hai.. wag sana maghanap ng treat ung iba jan na ndi nman alam kung kelan ang bday ko. =(
m really sad.
i'm planning to buy that red jacket from adidas or that red bag na mukhang ubos na. gift ko sa sarile ko pra happy me. but it depends if i have money pa. =( got to pay for gadget pa.
undas
i was asked to stay in pasig for two nights. coz walang ksamang "grown-up" ung 2 cuzins ko and the helper. i agreed to go since i've got work during the holidays. and i anticipated heavy traffic here along sucat hi-way on those days. while i was there, i found out kuya went to the cemetery already. he could go alone and he does it sometimes nman tlaga. so i texted my mum and coco when will we go to visit my dad's grave. and nobody replied. when i came home, i learned they have already gone there and did not wait for me. i was really sad and kind of mad coz it was the first time they went without me. how could they do that? we have always planned the date and time when everyone is good to go. and now they just didn't wait for me.
graveyard
i thought there's nothing scary sa mga graveyard. well, i don't go there alone nga kc dba. whether it was day or night. but when i went earlier to visit my dad's grave, i got really scared dhil ako lng mag-isa. alam mo ba ung huling poste na may ilaw sa gitna ng kalsada? ndi pa un dun. malayo pa. ndi nman ako dpat matakot kc marami pang tao. pero lahat cla palabas na. i didn't see anyone na papunta plang sa loob. and it was getting dark. and these people, ndi ko cla kilala. wat if they come near me and snatch my fone? =( or take me somewhere else that nobody can hear me? and kht na sumigaw ako, wala p ren mkakarinig saken. wat if they simply hurt me? ndi p nman alam sa bahay kung san ako nagpunta. i decided id call someone and tell him/her where i was. pra in case i don't return, malalaman nyo wer i was the last time. i was thinking of calling lui pero mlamang tulog un. paul didn't answer his fone. cno nlang? allan? asar ako sknya e. pero cge. he answered and told him wer i was. he instructed me to get out immediately. what the hell?! i just arrived. i promised to text him when im ok na.
i felt the need to go there before i have my birthday. i feel obliged to visit. i feel bad when each day passes and i couldn't at least drop by. i thought that maybe he would visit me instead if i won't make it to his grave.
i wished i brought scissors and cleaning stuff to fix the place. but even if i have it with me, i won't be able to do it. i lit a candle and talked to him. i miss him so much. i promised to go back some other time.
commencement exercises
nag leave ako for 2 days. first is to attend my mum's grad for her master's degree. the second day was supposed to be to attend a wedding.
sa PICC ung grad. it was the most disorganized event i've ever been to. sabe 2pm ung start, then it became 1pm. and when we got there, we thought we were already late. but no. it did not start until past 3pm. we have witnessed them do their rehearsals right there when they were supposed to have started already. the school president did not bother to practice his speech. he was a complete mess. and it was really funny. and those students kept standing and moving around while the president was making his terrible speech and the guest speaker who was good but has a weird accent. i recalled the grad practice we had back in college. we were strictly not allowed to stand and go anywhere else unless we finish. i wonder how we looked from behind. it must have been beautiful.
back to this grad. i hope next time they would work hard to improve it. they don't look like they could produce well-mannered students who can pass board exams. btw, the school.. it's PCHS.
that day i got mad kay kuya. it has something to do with money. i always pay for our transpo. he's always libre. wtf. on our way to PICC, i paid for the taxi. then pauwi mum borrowed some money from me and i gave her my last money assured that we could still go home ni kuya with what money he has. he's got lakad that night so i guessed that was the reason he wants to hurry. e kaso traffic. tas gusto pa nya mag taxi. i've got 20php left and he took it to add to his money. i don't have any money n tlga. we could've taken fx kaso galit n xa kuno. watever! he does not know how to make tipid. he'll spend everything khit ndi na kanya. BS tlga.
i left home the following day coz i don't want to go to the wedding anymore. and besides, i don't have money for another taxi ride. and xa nnman ang ksma ko. so i went with my cuzin nlng kc mag-eenrol xa nung araw na un. kuya txted and was looking for me. i didn't reply. and after 2 hours, his gf called and asked wer i was and how we wud mit to go to church. after nun, ndi pa kuntento ang kuya ko. he texted me pa. letting me know galit xa and telling me things i should've done. i nver tell him wer i go so why wud i bother tell him wer i was dat day. tas he blamed me pa coz f he knew sana daw maaga xa nkaalis ng house. ndi ko na problema un. asar tlga ako.
my sassy girl
i've seen that small billboard of the movie somewhere. and when basti invited me to watch, i refused. i don't like too much of those korean or chinese soaps and stuff anymore. and i definitely would not watch it in theaters. pero sabe nila maganda and it's really funny. so one time when my brother borrowed a vcd from his friend, we watched it at home. and sobrang funny nya. i told everyone i know na panoorin ung movie. so far all responded positively. except for karen. sabe nya it was the movie she was criticizing. pero it seemed to me na ako ung pinupuntirya nya and that jologs ang dating mo if u were caught watching korean flicks. so i told her i didn't like those stuff nga and wud never see it in big screens. pero prang ndi nya nagets. and thought na i watched it sa cine pa. ano buzz! ndi nga e. tas un, nag argue nkme. it was thru txt lang. oo napikon ako. e ndi ko nagustuhan ung mga cnabe nya. ndi lng kme nagkaintindihan. bhala nah. we haven't talked since it happened. that was nov. 12.
gudluck sa mga susunod na araw.
Sunday, November 6, 2005
message sent
i'm always thankful for people who stay even if i show them the real me, coz i can't be soeone others presume or expect me to be. it's nice to know you remain while i can just be me.ΓΌ
i sent this message to 8 people and got only 1 reply. =(
sabe nya, i'm perfect d way i am and that gr8ful xa 4 having me as a friend. and kahit lage nya ako sabihan na mataray, she can see that deep inside i'm nice and sweet.
how can sum1 actually find a cursing girl sweet and nice? may mali cgro sknya. hehe. pero natouch ako dun. coz not all people can actually see it. kakaiyak tuloy. thanks huh!
i sent this message to 8 people and got only 1 reply. =(
sabe nya, i'm perfect d way i am and that gr8ful xa 4 having me as a friend. and kahit lage nya ako sabihan na mataray, she can see that deep inside i'm nice and sweet.
how can sum1 actually find a cursing girl sweet and nice? may mali cgro sknya. hehe. pero natouch ako dun. coz not all people can actually see it. kakaiyak tuloy. thanks huh!
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