inconceivable

today, i realized that i am not a 'people person' and it sucks. there is no way around without getting in contact with another human being.

this is so...

the less0n i learned today

Kelan b d dpat mgtrust s isang frend?
Hnram nya un f0n ko, askng f i stl hav d pix taken arnd 2wks ago nung ngpunta kme s klowns at tgaytay. Havng sed n gs2 dw nya mkta un pix, inunlock ko un f0n ko and bnigay sknya. I had n0 idea n bburahin pla nya mga pix n knuha ko wyl she ws slpng (and drunk) s backseat. Haha! So ako ung bad. Kc ako ngtake ng mraming pix hbang wla xang malay. And ngy0n k lng nlaman nung inaayos ko n un mga pix s f0n ko. Hmm, dko nmn naicp n ggwn nya un and nkalimutan k nren un abt s mga pix. Wla nren ako mggwa kc dko p naupload agad. Sayang. bbawi nlang ako nxtym n mlasing xa. Hehe.
So ang less0n 4 me ngy0n s wag mxado mgtrust s mga frends. Coz dy d0nt always tell u d truth. Dey wud say anytng 2 get wat dey want.
And para senyo, drink m0derately. Para d wasted at d npagttripan ng mga ksama.

it sucks...

why does it always leave me miserable whenever i try to be happy? there has to be sum1 or sumthing that takes away the reason for being happy. it sucks. i hate it.

i know i have to be in control and could not let people or things or any event make me sad if i really want to.

but sumtimes it just happens. misery sinks in to the bone. i endure all pain and cry my heart out.

then i learn to be thankful for ehat i have, people i have in my life and those who have me in theirs. id feel better then.

shongerks

it's a term i learned from my cousin. i think its sum sort of gay lingo. whatever. i dunno. could be used to describe a person who did sumthing stupid. since ive learned about the word, i carelessly use it just about anytime i think anyone is being "stupid".

while trying to get some sleep.. i thought of a few things. then it hit me. shongerks--that was me. after everything that happened between us, what i went through to him, going over the edge and beyond reason, believing what was there and was not.

how stupid can i get? *shongerks*

BOBOng Pinoy, bumoto ka ba?

kht gano p kabulok ang sistema ng bansang ito, kht sobrang naghihirap na ang buhay at prang ndi nah uunlad.. mahal ko pa ren ang Pilipinas. dito ko p ren gusto tumira.

at khit malabo, naniniwala p ren ako n kung ttulong ako, magkkaron p ren ng pagbabago. gaya ng pagboto..

lahat tau may karapatan. pero ndi lahat sa atin may chance na magawa ito.

kaya ako, habang kaya ko pa, at may pagkakataon, bumoto ako.



sana lahat nkaboto. minsan lng nten gawin un. pero sadly, ndi nangyari un. ung iba, d pwde iwan ang trabaho. or may ibang mas importanteng ggawen. ano nman excuse ng ibang tao? mas may sense nga ba ang matulog nlng kesa bumoto?

tas pag nagkkaproblema, sinisisi natin ung mga taong naluklok sa gobyerno. nagrereklamo tau kc lage nlng ganito nangyayari. kmusta nman un? e cno ba bumoto dun sa mga un? kung sana pinili natin ng wasto kung cno ung nrarapat para sa posisyon, edi nbbawasan un hirap at gulo dito. sana lahat masaya dba?

hmm.. sana sa susunod mag isep ng mabuti.

slow pacing

22:11 :)
22:12 Ei! Uv seen d pix n p0?ü
22:14 yup. tnx ha
22:15 ngayon lang ako nagka-pic na kita ako sa boat. hehe
22:16 Yup. Np. Rquest n ----- un e. N0w k lng daw kc sit s fr0nt.ü
22:19 ya. ’99 pa ko nagstart pero ngayon lang ako naging pacer
22:20 may frndstr acct ka?
22:22 Ic. S0 pacer twag dun. Dunno much abt it e. I jz watch.ü I have. U can view it from -----’s page.


Hai.. gone were the days that I think of you. I got rid of everything about u from my fone that occupied a solid 3.5mb space. It was not too much. But it used to be so valuable to me then.

No regrets. I know you are happy. I am happy.

I know I didn’t lose anything I never had in the first place. Makes sense? Who cares?

holloween special

For once, I thought I was doing the right thing.
For once, I thought he was making everything else all good.
It seems to me that life is not like fairy tale all the time.
Coz this time, it's so real.
And it feels good.

Then he blew it.
Or did I?
Oh, where has all the magic gone?

I'd love for us to stay that way forever.
Too bad it can't possibly be.
Until I find no more reason to believe, I still feel for you.